A Letter to My Son at Christmas

I did not always think I wanted you
But I knew you before I knew myself
Sometimes when I looked at your daddy
I saw the eyes of a little boy
and I knew that I would see them again someday.
You have his eyes
His hair
His lips
His chin...
I wonder what you'll ever get from me.
That's okay with me though.
I'd rather you look more like your father.
I'd rather you act more like your father.
I know you will.
You already have a laugh that brings a whole room to attention
A smile that makes beauty queens jealous
There is joy in your every movement...
Joy in looking around
Joy in eating
Joy in crawling
Joy in reaching
Joy in standing
Joy in walking
Joy in seeing your Granddaddy's face
Joy in playing with the dogs.

My wish for you this Christmas
And every Christmas
Is that the joy you experience now
Be a part of your life always
Be a part of your life in ways you never expected
Be a part of your life even when the darkness creeps in
Bringing light.

Amen.